Merry Christmas, ya filthy animal

Merry Christmas, y’all. I hope your day yesterday was filled with love and happiness and that Santa didn’t judge you too much and was pretty good to you.

I can’t believe that in 5 short days we’ll be celebrating New Year’s Eve. 2014 has been a year of crazy changes and growth. 2015 promises to be even crazier. In 6 days I move into my new apartment at the beach. In 2 months I’ll be 25. I am so excited to start this new part of my life and hope there are so wonderful changes ahead.

That being said, I can’t help but play a little bit into the “new year, new me” saga a time change brings. Although, it’s not really me trying to be a new person; every year, I get more comfortable in my skin and like myself more. I don’t want to start over again. However, we can always grow as a person, and a new year is a great way to kick yourself in the ass to start that process.

Here’s what I plan to accomplish:

1. Join the gym and stick with it. Where I live right now (my hometown), the people who go to the gym are not only people I’ve known forever, but are also the ones who “TRAIN INSANE OR REMAIN THE SAME!!!!” I don’t give a shit about paleo, I don’t want to be able to lift double my body weight, and I sure as hell don’t want judgmental looks while I’m sweating my ass off. There’s a gym right down from my apartment that is only $10 a month with free classes where I won’t know a soul except my roommate. I have no excuse. I need to get in there, especially in the winter months, because my  energy level just tanks, and I feel gross. I know consistent exercise will help curb those problems.

2. Let go of negativity. In high school, I had a friend who was only happy when something was wrong. At first, it was exhausting, but after a while, I felt myself get sucked into it. We bitched about everything and anything. My mom finally pulled me aside and pointed out that behavior was toxic, and I was becoming just as bad as she was. Ever since, I’ve tried to avoid people with that character flaw. Lately, I’ve noticed some people I spend time with exhibit this behavior. I have to start being positive in the face of their negativity, or it’ll eat me alive.

3. Stop allowing people who suck have so much control. This is self explanatory. People who don’t have my best interest in mind and bring poison to my life have to go, regardless of how long I’ve known them and what kind of relationship it is.

4. Budget, budget, budget. I am horrible about this one, but moving out on my own for the first official time (college doesn’t count) is going to make me figure it out. I need to stop eating out when I’ve taken the time to make lunch. I need to also get off my ass and cook for myself more often. It’s fine to eat out occasionally, but it shouldn’t be something I want, not a $8 sandwich on a total whim.

5. Get on a routine. I won’t sugar coat it, I’m really lucky that my job doesn’t always require me to be in work on time as long as I get my 40 hours in. I also wear khakis and a polo and hardly any make up. But that doesn’t mean I can’t get my ass out of bed in the AM, get a work out in, shower, and eat a damn good breakfast! I do a disservice to myself but not getting my ass in gear in the AM. No more getting out of bed 15 minutes before I have to leave my house. Plus, if I do that, I can’t hit up the Starbucks right down the street. 🙂

I have a hamsa obsession and other things I want to tell you guys

Whoo-hoo! Two entries in 1 night. It’s getting wild in here, y’all. 

I love Buddhist jewelry. I love the sentiment of all the symbols. I think they’re so neat. Whenever I decide to man up, I plan on getting a hamsa tattoo. I haven’t gotten a new one since I was 21, and I’m starting to think it’s a lot like going back to school: the longer you wait, the harder it is to go back. Hey, no one ever said I was a good influence.



These are some hamsa pieces I made a few nights ago. They also happen to be #13-#15. I have no idea if I’ll actually make it to 100, but hey, at least I’m still following my resolution!

I also promised you guys I would start being more “me” with you. So, I found this cool challenge on Pinterest of 30 topics to blog about. They’re pretty personal, but I’m going to attempt to go through them all. 

#1: Five ways to win your heart.

Shew, let’s dump myself straight into vulnerable territory. I hate being vulnerable; I’d rather do anything else than put my heart on my sleeve. My partner at work tells me all the time that he’s pretty positive I have no heart (thanks dude). I’m trying to work on it, though, because I figure no one knows how you feel if you don’t tell them. And if it’s negative, how will they fix it? It’s a complete work in progress, though; I am awful at it. But I digress.

1. Know who you are. There is nothing more attractive that will win me over than knowing yourself. Embrace the good, the bad, and the ugly. Own the room you walk into, light it up. I love being the significant other of someone that people are drawn to.

2. Have a passion. I swear I have undiagnosed ADD, but no matter how boring I think something is, if the person who is telling me about it has an obvious passion that shines through, I will be entranced. People who have a passion for something just have a glow about them.

3. Show me you care. Good morning texts, flowers, planning something fun, brag about something I did that you think is awesome, ask about something you know I care about deeply, all of it is awesome. I don’t need the moon. I just need you to show you care.

4. Love your family. Look, all of our families drive us crazy. My dad and I have the same temper, my mom will purposely push my buttons, and my brother chews loudly. I love the shit out of all of them. Tell me how much you love your parents, or your grandma, or how proud you are of your brother. It shows me that you have a structure in your life and cherish the little things that many people don’t have. I get that we all have skeletons. But that’s why we have our families; to help us take them out of the closet and make em dance. 

5. Give me space to be myself. I have been told by many, many, MANY people in my life that it’s going to take a special man to “deal” with my strong personality. First of all, I don’t want to be “dealt” with. I want to be loved for who I am. I’m a pain in the ass, I have a temper, I’m stubborn as hell, and I need to occasionally be told when I’m being ridiculous. But I need a man who can reign me in, while simultaneously giving me the space to be my own person and loving me all at once. Don’t try and break me down. I’ll be gone before you know what happened. 


How about y’all? What 5 things to win your heart?